I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
O Israel, put your hope in the Lord. (Psalm 130:5-7)
Waiting is no easy thing. In fact,
it takes quite a bit of effort. But
effort in a much different way than we are used to. There is a letting go that is
necessary in waiting: a letting go of control and opinion and agenda; a letting
go of strength and power and adequacy.
Waiting is the place where we have to come face to face with our
inability to make things happen for ourselves.
Thus, it can be an incredibly humbling process.
But waiting is not only about letting go, there is also a taking
hold that is necessary. We must begin
to embrace—rather than deny—our own vulnerability, dependence, and
weakness. For the scriptures clearly
tell us that “When we are weak, we are strong.” (2 Cor. 12:10) Waiting puts us in a place where we must confront
our own nothingness and find that it is not an enemy, but a friend. It has something of incredible value to teach
us, if we are willing to listen.
Therefore, waiting is never passive, but always active. It involves the movement from clenched fists
to open hands. For clenched fists can
never receive anything. And, in the end,
waiting is always about receiving. It is
about realizing that we cannot control or contrive or manipulate God into
giving us anything, we must simply learn to wait with open hands to receive
whatever he decides to give, whenever he decides to give it. Thus, our hope is not in our own efforts,
gifts, and abilities, but in his grace alone, which is always sufficient.
