first love

Our affections can tell us a lot if we pay attention to them.  Whoever, or whatever, has our heart is the person, or the thing, that determines most of our behavior.  Because you can’t behave your way into love, you can only love your way into behavior.  Jesus, first and foremost, does not want your activity, he wants your affection.  He knows that if he has your affection, everything else will fall into place.  It is how we are wired.  The person, or the thing, you are most deeply in love with, and passionate about, will determine how you go about your days and how you live your life.

So, let me ask you, where is the romance in your life these days?  Who, or what, possesses your deepest affections?  Who, or what, is first; not in the sense of chronology, but priority?  What do you spend most of your energy thinking and dreaming about?  Who is the one you desire to spend most of your time with?  Who, or what, gives you the most life and energy?  If you pay careful attention to these questions, it can tell you a lot about your life, as well as your loves.  You see, the thing about your affections is that they will always land somewhere.  They are always seeking an object, whether you know it or not.  Therefore, you need to be careful that their landing spot is worthy of them.

Jesus told the church at Ephesus, “You have abandoned your first love. (Rev. 2:4) You have allowed other people and other things to distract you and take your heart away from your first love—me.  Others have become more important to you.  And when you get your affections out of order, chaos ensues.  Come back to me.  Let your hearts be seized once again by the power of my Great Affection.  Because everyone and everything else is a poor substitute for the love you were made for.”

Most of us did not set out to abandon our first love, it was a slow, steady drift.  We got so distracted and consumed with the people and the things around us that before we knew it the tides had carried us miles and miles down the beach.  Other people and other things had slowly become more important than the One who made us to live in his passionate and intimate love.  Therefore, we must learn to pay attention to our loves, particularly to our First Love.  We must make time and space for the great affection of Jesus to capture and consume us again and again.  We must be thoughtful and intentional about cultivating our romance with Jesus, the Lover of our Souls.  Otherwise, we might end up just like the church at Ephesus, fueled by a dull sense of duty and obligation, rather than ignited and consumed with the passionate love of Jesus.

recognizing Jesus

“As they talked and discussed these things with each other, Jesus himself came up and walked along with them; but they were kept from recognizing him.” (Luke 24:15-16) Sometimes we can get so busy talking about Jesus that we forget to talk to Jesus.  Look no further than the two men walking he road to Emmaus.  Sure, they had been through a lot.  They were still processing all that had happened over the last several days.  But Jesus himself came right up and walked along with them and they did not even recognize it.  The million dollar question is: What, exactly, kept them from being able to recognize him?  The answer to that question may lie in another question: What keeps you from being able to recognize him?

We get so caught up spinning around in our own little lives that we fail to recognize a lot of things, much less Jesus standing right in our midst.  We get so distracted by our own opinions and agendas and explanations that it is impossible to see where he is, or exactly what he is up to.  We need something, or Someone, to break us out of our continual loop and awaken us to his presence, his Spirit, and his voice.  We need to have our eyes opened, so that we too might say, “Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?”

Lord Jesus, there are so many things in this life that keep us from being able to recognize you; some of them even very good things.  Help us to not get so caught up in our own lives and ministries that we miss you standing in our very midst.  Have mercy on us, O Lord.  Amen.

orbit

the gravitational pull

of our own little lives

keeps us stuck

in a decaying orbit

around our own little world

until that orbit is disrupted

by something or someone

and we are finally able to see

how limited our vision had become

we were living unto ourselves

without even knowing it

a grace disguised has shaken us

and given us a new set of eyes

it has granted us a new way

of seeing and of being

that allows us to break free

from the pull of our old ways

and chart a new course to

beautiful worlds yet unknown

sowing in tears

“Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.” (Psalm 126:5) 

In the midst of this chaotic world, it is so easy to get stuck on the first half of this verse and completely forget about the second half.  There seems to be a lot of pain and struggle going around these days; and some of it of the totally overwhelming variety.  Lots of tears and sadness and sorrow.  Lots of sickness and suffering and death.  And in the midst of all this sowing in tears, it is easy to lose track of hope.  It is easy to become so consumed by our current surroundings and circumstances that we overlook what God might be up to both within us and around us as a result. 

Which is totally understandable.  Some pain is so raw and so bad and so wrong that it is hard to imagine any good coming out of it, or to conceive of what life might even look like on the other side of it.  And that’s okay.  Sometimes a significant amount of time must pass after the sowing in tears before we are even ready to try and get to the reaping.  It may take months, or even years, before we are able to recognize what God might have been up to in the midst of our agony.  But that doesn’t change the fact that he was, and is, up to something.  God is so strong and so loving that he can and will bring beauty from our ashes, even if it is hard for us to fathom.  And it is the hope of that reaping, either on this side of eternity or the other, that gets us through the day.

Joy is coming down the road, and it is more joy than we can ever ask for or imagine.  There will be a day when we will both see the sheaves and bring them home.  But don’t ever let the joy of what’s coming, make you miss the reality of what already is.  God is here, right in the midst of it.  So lean in.  Take hold of him.  Linger with the things that disturb or disrupt or undo you.  You might find God right in the middle of it.  Don’t run away.  Don’t try to escape or avoid what is hard, if not impossible, to face alone.  Just be present to Him who is always present to you, whether you can sense it or not.  The sheaves will come, when the time is right.  And, believe it or not, there will, one day, be songs of joy.

plans

Question: How many plans have you had to change in the last 10 months?  How many times have you had to cancel something, or had something canceled on you?  Lots, right?  Canceling things has been raised to an art form these days.  Just today I had to cancel a day of solitude with a couple of dear friends because two of us were in contact with someone who “may have” been exposed to the Coronavirus.  And that has become commonplace.

Maybe God is trying to tell us something.  Maybe he is trying to get us to stop making our own plans and to start asking him what his plans are.  After all, he is the one who said: “I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

Who knows, maybe it’s time for us to stop planning and start listening.  Maybe it’s time for us to stop being the initiators and start being the responders.  Maybe we have gotten so used to this mode of operation that we hardly notice it anymore.  Maybe the whole reason we have to keep canceling things is because they were our things and not his.  Maybe God is trying to get us on his page, rather than us constantly trying to get him on ours.  Maybe this is a time, and a season, when he just wants us to "Be still and know that he is God." (Psalm 46:10)

Preparing for Lent

 

Ash Wednesday is only a month away (Feb. 17).  If you are looking for a good guide and companion to lead you and your friends, or family, or staff, or small group, or church, through the seasons of Lent and Easter, Journey to the Cross could be for you.

leading by becoming smaller

Contrary to popular opinion, leadership is not about becoming great, but about enabling others to become great.  “The best leaders,” Parker Palmer tells us, “do not take up all the room.”  In this dog-eats-dog world that seems a little backwards.  It is counter-cultural, and certainly counter-intuitive.  But in the kingdom of God things are often turned upside down, just look at the Beatitudes.  Jesus came to show us a new way—the true way—and we would do well to pay attention.

Life is not about becoming bigger, but about becoming smaller, so that he may be big.  Jesus preached it, John the Baptist proclaimed it, and pilgrims and saints down through history have testified to it.  Thomas à Kempis wrote: “Enjoy being unknown and regarded as nothing.”  Trying to be known, and seen as somebody significant makes us the worst version of ourselves.  Angela of Foligno, in her last message to her disciples, said, “Make yourselves small!  Make yourselves very small!”  She knew all too well that trying to be big was the root of so many of our problems.  John the Baptist said, “He must become greater; I must become less.” (John 3:30) And, in 1 Peter 5:5-6, Simon Peter, the leader of the early church, said, “Clothe yourselves with humility toward one another.”  In fact, Jesus himself said, “Blessed are the meek, for theirs is the kingdom of God.” (Matthew 5:5)

Simply put, the path to life, and to leadership, does not lead upward, but downward.  It involves humility (lowliness of heart) and meekness and self-denial.  It demands that we empty ourselves of self and stay low to the ground.  The very best leaders are those who put others before themselves, and the success of others before their own.  For whoever wants to be great among you, must be serve, and whoever wants to be first must be servant of all.” (Mark 10:43-44)  It is in the giving up of life that we actually find life.  So even though the world would try to convince you that becoming small is a bad thing, don’t be fooled.  Becoming small is the very best way to lead—it is the way of Jesus.