“No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up on the last day.” (John 6:44)
Why me, O Lord?
Why did you choose to lay your hand of love on me? Why did you give me this amazing life? Why did you grace me with deep intimacy and love? Why do you continually draw your mouth close to my ear and whisper words of delight and affection? Why did you give me this beautiful and loving and incredible woman to share my life and love with? Why did you give me such wonderful children, and now grandchildren, to love and be loved by? Why did you bless me with such deep, rich friendships and such vibrant, life-giving ministry over the last 45 years?
And why on earth do you desire relationship with me in the first place? Why do you allow me to share your very life? Why do you choose to actually live your life in and through me? Why do you allow me the intimacy and the privilege of sharing in your suffering? Why do you want me to live in ecstatic union with you?
Why me, O Lord, why me?