I don’t know about you, but I am amazed at how often I pray, “Father, save me from this hour,” rather than, “Father, glorify your name!” (John 12:27-28) It shows me where my true allegiances lie. I am much more committed to my own comfort and ease than I am to God being glorified in my life and world. It’s really pretty sad.
Life with God is about absolute surrender and total abandonment. My problem is that I want a little bit of surrender and partial abandonment, which is impossible. Surrender doesn’t really happen if I am holding anything back. And abandonment that is partial, is not really abandonment at all.
Jesus is trying to move me form a “less of me, more of him” mentality, to a “none of me, all of him” mindset. That’s why he said, “Unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground AND DIES,” (John 12:24) rather than, “Unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and becomes less.” The death of self is a necessity in glorifying God. Jesus did it, and calls us to do the same. We must die to self, in order to live in God. There is no half way.
O Lord, forgive me when I care more about my own comfort than I do about your glory. Give me the strength and the grace and the courage to pray, with Jesus, “Father, glorify your name!” Amen.