Do I really have the desire for change in my life, if I constantly resist that change? Do I really want to follow Jesus, if I continually refuse to surrender to him? If I constantly try to manage and control my own life? If I refuse to embrace the powerlessness and dependence necessary to be truly led by him? If I refuse to be still and listen. If I refuse to respond to his will and his direction, rather than forcing my own? If I refuse to become nothing, so that he might become everything? If I refuse to become forgotten, so that he can be remembered? If I refuse to become small, so that he can become big? If I refuse to be hidden, so that he might be seen? If I refuse to become no one, rather than always trying to be someone?
The answer: probably not.