weak is strong

Weak is strong in the kingdom of God.  Never in my life have I felt as weak, as flawed, as fragile, and as vulnerable as I do these days, and yet God continues to work in power.  Never has the phrase “treasure in jars of clay” been a more accurate description of who I am and how I’m operating, and yet God continues to show up in amazing ways.  Maybe because I am finally getting out of the way.  

Never has “For when I am weak, then I am strong" been more evident in my life and my ministry.  My weakness, my anxiety, and my dysfunctions are the very channels through which God is doing some of his deepest and best work.  I’ve tried to overcome them all, to no avail, and now I think I’m actually supposed to lean into them and embrace them.  That seems to be what Paul is saying.  I’m not supposed to overcome them because his power is made perfect in my weakness.  Weak is strong in the kingdom of God.  His power is best revealed in my powerlessness.  It’s all about him, not about me.  When will I ever learn?

the kingdom

 the kingdom of God

is like a mustard seed

from the smallest 

of beginnings

it grows within 

until it is able 

to offer life 

and hope

to all in need

of its shelter 

stop thief

let me hear

joy and gladness 

let the bones 

you have crushed

rejoice

fear and insecurity 

are like guilt and shame

always together 

partners in crime 

intent on robbing me

of the joy and gladness 

that are mine in Christ

a new song

God often uses disruption and disorientation in our lives to jolt us out of our apparent self-sufficiency, so that he might give us himself in some new and deeper and more beautiful way.  His desire in doing so is to take us beyond where we are and where we have been―beyond comfort to trust, beyond independence to dependence, beyond fear to love.

So, when disruption, deconstruction, and disorientation occur in our lives, we should see them as friends rather than foes.  We should see them as invitations rather than annoying inconveniences. They are meant to lead us beyond, to a place deeper into the heart and life of God.

Psalm 40 is a great example of this movement.  The whole reason for our time in the slimy pit has to do with knowing, trusting, and loving God in new and deeper ways.  The whole reason for the mud and the mire is that he might put a new song in our mouths, a hymn of praise to our God.  It is the way growth in Christ typically happens.